Fulfilling, well-filled past week and part of this week.

• Started my intense driving lessons
• Right foot recovered from injury
• Did up some staff work and proposals
• Attended Allcare’s graduation (emceed for it actually)
• Had my first ART training! Very tiring though.
• Collected my SVM race pack
• Good rest on Sunday
• In camp for whole of Monday, some work too
• Last Arms Presentation on Monday 19 Nov
• Driving lessons and e-trial today, 20 Nov

Upcoming

• ORD FFI tomorrow afternoon (YAY!)
• More driving lessons
• Wisdom tooth operation on Friday, 23rd
• And the one month MC that it entails!
• SVM2012 on 25 Nov 2012 (Sun)
• IMOS cohesion on 30 Nov on civilian turf

Staying true to self

The past few days haven’t been fruitful.

So after my injury, I went to see my GP on Tuesday (I didn’t really have to hop anymore, as compared to Monday and earlier Tuesday). Got three days of MC and actually resoluted to stay home doing productive things like reading, blogging and writing but ended up watching videos instead. Damn unhealthy, without optical rest and what-nots. As of Wednesday night, I could more or less walk properly, but haven’t did any exercise until now, just to be safe.

At times I feel I just need an outlet for all the pressure in me. Self-induced pressure, highly likely. I’ve been caught in multiple struggles with myself – between gratification and wellness 90% of the time.

I’ve become highly sensitive, easily agitated, and trying very hard to curb my emotions as a result. That’s unhealthy too, I know.

This temporary house seems to have something wrong. I’ve been really lazy, become incoherent, and probably less intelligent both academically and emotionally since we’ve moved here. I just don’t feel right every day, and I need to escape.

I need to escape.

Of Late

The past few weeks, probably even since August, have been rather fulfilling and well-occupied. Being a senior-cum-chief has its benefits, and I suppose I’ve turned into a workaholic of late, just because loving the nature of work, the impact I make, and the peripherals I might get, with some luck and extraordinar-ity.

Been doing some races including AHM, Nike We Run, and Newton 30km Challenge. I’m only happy about the result for Newton though. From http://runnersperspective.wordpress.com/races/:

3. Army Half Marathon 2012 – 21km (Sep 9, 2012) 1h 54min
4. Nike We Run SG 2012 – 10km (Oct 21, 2012) 59min
5. Newton Challenge 2012 – 30km (Oct 28, 2012) 2h 45min

I’ve also got myself on the radar for (sometimes) the wrong reason in camp. Anyway, I’ve did a behemoth amount of meaningful things, nonetheless. Doesn’t really matter anymore, I suppose. Really happy with what I’ve accomplished, be it physically, cognitively, or what-nots. Submitted some scholarship applications, fine-tuned my blogs, did some good workouts, and had some great results and interpersonal boosts.

Somehow, my right foot is in immense pain now. Right now. After wearing an elevated type of dress shoes to Malaysia to attend a wedding on Sunday, some muscular-tendon group on the outside of my right foot became sore. Aggravated by sleep last night and this afternoon, I had to limp home, literally. I just Googled, it’s the extensor digitorum brevis I suppose. Well, I didn’t see the MO today – I believe I will tomorrow.

Weekly reviews since September:

• Week 40 (24/09-30/09): Hectic week-before-final-week, though we had a great IMOS cohesion on Friday where I made vital (re)links with others in the unit. Did rock-climbing, abseiling, high-ropes, swimming, and cross-country, all in the same day. Missed out 2/12’s final IPPT though.
• Week 41 (01/10-07/10): The much-dreaded POP week which didn’t turn out to be too bad anyway. Wasn’t too tiring as expected, but almost died, literally. Just saying anyway. Ended with a really high 2/12 POP which made many happy YAY.
• Week 42 (08/10-14/10): The even-more-dreaded post-admin week. Not too eventful though except for a nice huddle-talk with Institute Commander.
• Week 43 (15/10-21/10): Fulfilling Tuesday at the SAFSA cross-country though I didn’t run, I witnessed how much better others can be compared to me. Had my first driving lesson that night, it was thrilling, and have always been till now.
• Week 44 (22/10-28/10): Stepping up my driving-learning efforts by constantly attending lessons. Besides, attended a court martial (really eye-opening experience) and also the Formation Commander’s conference (which I, as usual, had something to say). Week culminated in a pleasing 30km run Newton run at East Coast Park on Sunday (see here for more).
• Week 45 (29/10-04/11): Booked in three times at night this week – 7km run, 3/12 BMT enlistment, and last night (for monthly colours actually). The 7km was good, relaxing and rejuvenating especially after Newton, followed by a refreshing swim at Serangoon thereafter. And Enlistment was almost flawless (at least for me), and I learnt the true meaning of letting go.

Haven’t been very faithful to my productivity resolution though. I’ve been blaming myself for that, slothing around engaging in mentally and physically unhealthy stuff in front of this stupid 17″ screen. Let’s just hope I can stay true to my (silent) words in the future, and as I leave service. Focus is hard to come by, it requires ultimate determination and will from the individual.